thank god i have grown :)

just found my friendster profile and boy was i lame! HAHA. it's been like what? 3 years if i'm not mistaken. i looked so immature and ugly back then :/ and i never realized how boring that site actually is. ok maybe i did or else i'd still be wasting my time there but seriously, i don't see the point of the whole site. 




school holidays just started. LIKE FINALLY! no more horrible exams and lack of sleep. yea i still have tuitions but it's not that bad. maybe i should start going to taman rakyat again since i'm becoming very lazy lately. it's embarrassing to say that my stamina is just, well, disappointing. very disappointing. but that place is just filled with people i know and well, i'd rather be at someplace quiet where no one can see me and give the "you, jogging?" look. yea, i'm very insecure. anyways, i'm finding myself to be more and more lifeless, i find myself doing things that are just so not worth it and well, useless. i really don't know why i bother wasting my time doing these things. like right now, i'm just going through random peoples' facebook profile and when i say random i really mean random. like i don't even know them! i really need a new hobby -.-' 




i give up. i know you shouldn't but sometimes you just got to. i'm sick of trying to be like how you want me to just so that i can please you. i'm sick of trying so hard to not hurt you and i'm just sick of doing so much yet being so unappreciated. so yea, from now on all i'm gonna do is just shut up, ignore the nagging and just not care. ask me something, i'll answer you. want me to do something i'll do it but other then that just don't expect anything anymore. you asked for it. i tried too many times but you just never realized, hopefully someday you will though. sorry :/






why is it that it's so hard for you to notice all the nice things i do to make you happy but so easy to notice the mistakes that i unintentionally do? 

watching you's the only drug i need..