epic failure

so far, every paper i have sat for has just been horrible. i really think i'll be lucky to even get an A for any subject. yea, even english was bad. i screwed up the guided composition part by not reading the question properly. shit lah. and chemistry.... it was, so tough! chemistry is one of the only subjects i actually have fun studying and i really thought i would be able to get at least 80, well that's what i aimed for anyway but after sitting for paper2, yeaaa that is definitely not gonna happen. i don't even think i'll be able to get a B+ and i haven't even sat for paper 1. yup, i did that bad. stupid chapter 3. if only i did more exercises on it... haihhh dammit.




i hate exam periods. then again, who likes it? i just get so worn out and dead. like my whole timing changes. i end up sleeping the minute i finish having dinner after tuition which is probably around 10.15 and find myself needing to wake up at around 2.15 in the morning to do my revision and then just rest my eyes for about 20 minutes before getting ready to go to school at 5.15 so by the time i home again in the afternoon i'll be dead tired but no, still no time to rest cause i need to feed my puppy and then get ready to go for tuition. -.-''' i guess what i'm trying to say is i only get about more or less 4 hours of sleep per day which is not good. at all. i'm just waiting for the mid-term break to start! i really need more time to sleep and laze around. what? i can't help being me :)




i have an ulcer at my tongue and it hurts like hell! like seriously, i can't talk properly, i can't drink water or even swallow my saliva and worse of all, i bloody hell can't eat! it sucks because i'll be freakin starving but i just can't chew or swallow anything but i can't just starve myself can i? so i have to, no wait, actually i'm forced to eat very little amount of food everyday and i hate it! i always eat whenever i want to as i get hungry quite fast and this stupid ulcer is just torture! Arggghhhhh just go away already! ok all this talking bout food is making me hungry. i'm gonna go eat my maggi mee :) i absolutely, positively LOVE  maggi mee :) hopefully i'll be able to eat :/




it's been awhile since i last cried :/ feels real good

watching you's the only drug i need...