HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME? :D

I'M FIFTEEN!

as much as i can't believe that i am, well, i am. i don't feel fifteen. actually i dont really know how i'm supposed to feel cos umm, i feel the same. i mean, technically it's like any other day, i do all the same things. the only thing which makes it feel like my birthday is the cakes, presents and wishes. 


the guys at school bought a cake which was so sweet of them. i really don't like all the attention but it wasn't that bad other than the fact that they sang at the canteen and i think everyone was looking! hey, you can't blame me for not wanting to make a big deal out of the day. i never want to anyway. like i said, i just don't like all the attention. yea it's a little weird i guess i mean, who dosn't like to celebrate their birthday right? well apparently, me :) oh and i got tons of wishes on facebook which oh so brightens my day especially the ones from unexpected people. hehe *smiles widely* ok so i was looking for one specific person's wish but whatever. i knew i wouldn't be getting it anyway so no surprise there. it would have been nice though. :( i don't know why i'm actually expecting it. so stupid!

watching you is the only drug i need....

okay-ish performance

yeaa.... cathecatical night, wasn't that great. well, we weren't that bad i think but still we weren't that awesome either. i'm just speaking on behalf of us singing group of course cos the dance group..... they were well kinda awesome! okay not kinda, they were! i dunno why its so hard for me to say that. lol oh well thank gosh it's all over now and thinking back about that day, most of the audience were old people anyway so yea, i guess it's not that bad. and at least the place was dark so hopefully they couldn't see my face clearly. i was at the side anyway. haizzzz, hopefully....

watching you is the only drug i need...

dying of boredom!

i'm starting to think that maybe life after pmr is not that great. i mean yea, i have nothing to study but that's the whole problem. this whole year my life was filled with studying, doing revisions, tuition and school so now that i dont need to do any of it, its just nothing. yea there's tv and computer and i get to go out a lot but i can only do it for so long until i get sick of it and i think i am starting to get sick of it. and school, oh gosh it's like soooo boring there! well it wouldn't be that bad if they let us stay in our own classes and do whatevere we want, but nooo. instead they keep us in the dewan and give us stupid activities to do. like todaay, i have got no idea why i decided to go cos it was just a bad bad idea. we were in the dewan, as usual and i hate being there cos sitting there too long hurts my butt. lol but yea. so the afternoon session counsellor lady asked us to draw our family tree. like wth right? i mean we're not 7! and to make things even worse she drew her own family tree and started babbling bout her family and how her mum always favoured her sister and younger brotherand how she had to always cook for them and yadaa yadaa yaada. seriously, that is no way to spend time after pmr's over! i'm just planning to not go to school ever till the last day but obviously my dad will totally not agree. i think he hates it when i don't go and i seriously dont know why. maybe i'm wasting electricity and all. lol


so we have this cathecatical night in church. basically it's like our concert day you know where each class performs something. yea my class.... we're totaly not prepared because well we had pmr to focus on then, and well, n one really wants to coorperate which is just so annoying! i mean, would it hurt if you just shut up for a few seconds and plan on what we should do? but after a little persuation from our teacher we had to make up our mind on what we're gonna do which was singing cos that's like the easiest thing to as we'll be in a group and we can just pick a really easy song and practise ourselves at home. well there were some of them who wanted to do a play and dance but i mean come on, we so do not have the time since we only had a week left to practise but some of them really wanted to dance and i was like nuh uh am i attending the thing if we're gonna dance so we decided to just split to two and do both so now its us singing and them dancing. hope everything turns out well, we're gonna be singing "take it all" and "awesome god" by hillsong so lets just hope this dosnt end up a disaster like all the other performances we did.

watching you is the only drug u need...

Glamnation Tour here i come.. NOT!

i hate today. hate it! absolutely hate it! it could have been like any other ordinary day but nooo. okay so there i was after school all exhausted cos of the sleeping really late but woke up really early for school so i was having a short nap. okay well not that short but yea when my dad called like around 5.45 pm. i thought you know he was just calling to check up on us when he was like "you like adam lambert right?' so me in my half asleep voice was like "umm i guess.. why?" then he was like "okay listen, i have four tickets to go watch his concert so find people who you wanna go with. fast!" then i said "omg really?! wow! umm okay but why.." then it hit me that the concert was errr today! and i only had like two more hours till it started and it's all the way at kl! and then there was also the really big problem which was transportation as my dad obviously couln't send me cos he was working! so in that little time i had left i called almost everyone i knew. i literally went through the contacts in my phone and called almost everyone. even people whoom i had lost contact to. yup i was that desperate. unfortunately time waits for no man and it was soon closing in on me and yea, right then when i had like half an hour more before the thing started, i knew i had no choice but to just give up and honestly, it sucked like hell. i felt like a total loser! i didn't even remember that that the concert was today and honestly, if my dad didn't say we had tickets it would have been totally fine cos i didn't giva a rats shit about it all along but to think that i was so close to going but didn't yea that is a total bummer. so yea here i am now, reading tweets from JJ and Ean bout how awesome it is and the amount of people there. its like they're rubbing it in my face! uurgh stupid twitter. i don't know why but suddently i really wanna go for paramore's concert on the 19th if i'm not mistaken.


hmm, well since i'm talking about concerts might as well make myself feel better by talking about the Arthur's Day celebration. it was okay actually. oh who am i kidding, it was totally AWESOME! so i was a lil late cos of the stupid traffic jam and all and unfortunately i missed pop shuvit and mizz nina but whateva. i don't really care bout them anyway. Colby was just o-my-wow hawt! and he played the guitar which just added to his hotness. he even threw the jacket he was wearing to some lucky person! just imagine his perfume scent and sweat mixed together in that jacket and some lucky bitch got it! okay i know it may sound a lil disgusting especially the sweat part but i bet you wouldn't think so if you had it. Sean Kingston and flo-rida were equally awesome. they had a few lucky people on stage with them and i was seriously oh so close to touching flo-rida. he was just like on even a centimetre away but there were so many people pushing to touch him as well so yea i didn't get to. Kingston picked three lucky girls to go onstage with him and sang 'beautififul girls' to them. how lucky can they get right?! they ended it with all the performers coming onstage and singing happy birthday to Arthur and shouting "to Arthur!" followed by an awesome fireworks display. it was just so beautiful and and Colby o'donis looked so hot! there was also this other hot guy who's name i don't know. he performed with Flo-rida together with his group who's name i also forgot. lol, dayumn he was hot! other then the performers there were also quite a number of hot guys at the concert. well lets just say the sight was just wow. haha what? i'm fifteen. it's normal to drool over guys sometimes.


i know i know maybe right now you're thinking so what if this girl didn't get to go for Adam Lambert's show? she bloody hell went for Arthur's Day. isn't that like more then enough? well that's what i got from some people but just because you got lucky once doesn't mean you can't get lucky again right? i mean i'm so grateful that i got to go for Arthur's Day this year and last but that doesn't mean i can't be sad and moan about not being able to go for Adam Lambert's show. it is a VIP ticket i'm talking about. oh yea i forgot to mention that. so you see, why shouldn't i moan and be in a totally bad mood right now?! haizz but i better shake this off. it's not that big of a deal anyway. so what if im here crapping about all this when i could be there? owh who am i kidding, fuck everything that has got to do with anything!

watching you is the only drug i need...

ITS OVER BABY!

okay so finally pmr is OVER! all this time i've been crapping bout how many more days there was left and how totally unprepared i was but to think that it actually is wow. makes you realise how time flies whether you like it or not but in this case obviously i do. so now i guess its time to PARTAY!


PMR was okay i guess. i mean i thought the trials paper were tougher but i dunno, i'm not saying anything. i'm kinda scared for my bm as i crapped in my karangan part but then again, don't i always? lol.. science paper two was also kinda tough and kh, well no need to say. i kept skipping from one question to another hoping it'll get easier but nop. gosh okay lets just not talk about that anymore. i'm getting kinda nervous.


hmm, so many things to do. i can finally go out without feeling guilty that i'm not studying, read as many novels as i want, watch tv and surf the net the whole day and skip school for fun! it's gonna be awesome. i don't even know where to start. i'd probably sleep like there's no tomorrow i mean after all, sleeping is so my thing. it's like one of the thing's i'm good at. i know, i know anyone can sleep but trust me when i say i bet i can so beat you to it. haha, i'm that confident. wish i was that confident for my results. ah damn, i'm going back there again! okay skip that. uurgh now i can't think of anything else. umm lets see, facebook! yes facebook, i should go activate it now. i lasted like more or less two months and 21 days. not bad eh? i didnt think i could do it though but now i dunno, i feel like it's not that great anyway and if i activate it, i'm just gonna waste my time there again which is totally useless. this is so a pros and cons moment. okay i'm gonna do something totally useless now since i have nothing useful  to do.

watching you is the only drug i need...