MAKE A DIFFERENCE!

i dunno why i bother coming here but i have nothing else to do so might as well make this place a lil useful. ok so drama was horrible. i actually thought we did great, like top 3 great but we ended up not even getting a position! KISAS ended up winning and honestly theirs was total shit! no on even payed attention to them as they were errrr boring and yet they won! like wth? this country if freakin racist, man! i bet they just wanted a malay school represent klang. screw em all but yea whatever.

so it's holy week and well it's time to be holy i guess. i feel like i didn't do much this lent season, i mean i didn't even go for confession and i feel really really bad so i'm gonna do something this week to make up for it all. i know it's not much since it's only a week but hey, it's better then nothing right? i wanna sacrifice something that  really means something to me or something i'm addicted to but the thing is, what am i addicted to? i realy don't know! yea, there's stupid facebook and my addiction to smsing but other then that, what else? hmm i think i'm gonna read a few chapters from the bible starting tomorrow. i actually find reading the bible very soothing especially when you feel like shit and feel like you have no where else to turn to. yea, it helps you feel better. but then again it also makes you feel really bad cuz the people then were, well, holy and it makes you feel like a devil. okay skip that. soo yea, i'm gonna read the bible! i'm gonna make a difference this week. no bad thoughts, no bad words, no cursing anyone and most of all no complaints. well, i'll try my level best anyway...


where in the world am i suppose to find people who are willing to sponsor me a whole load of money?

watching you's the only drug i need...

you just don't get it!

who ever said being a teenager was easy? i'm not saying it's hard but it's definitely not easy especially when you have people who just don't understand this! it may have been easy back then but now in this generation it's actually quite pressuring. i mean did you have to go for tuitions almost every single day of the week? were you involved in any competitions which needs a lot of practice for you to win? did you have teachers in your school who sucked so you just don't learn anything in school and have to count on yourself to get good results? i don't think so. so don't just assume that you know what it's like to be me and think that it's so easy and fun cause it's not. you expect me to remember anything and everything? come on, i'm human too! it's not wrong for me to forget things but nooo you just go around thinking i'm irresponsible and need to change. you just don't understand!

urghh ok i'm just not gonna think about it anymore so anyways, our drama competition was yesterday and we managed to get to the finals so yay us!! :D we were seriously damn scared that we weren't gonna make it but thank god we did. i think we did good but now is where the competition really begins. we're gonna have to work extra hard to win this which is what we're doing so  hopefully it pays off. i really really really wanna win. it would be totally awesome!

i wish i was really rich :( it's so sad that almost everything pretty in the world these days are just so freakin expensive! and me being the one who actually cares about how money is spent had to be the really nice one who was willing to sacrifice what i really really wanted. i always end up doing that and i'm getting fed up! if i'm always gonna care too much bout all this then i'm just never gonna get anything i want. what do i want exactly? well, for now it's A NEW HANDPHONE since mine is like practically dying! then i want braces but why does it have to be so expensive?! and then there's this really really nice skinny jeans i saw the other day which was just perfect and i was so close to buying it till my parents saw the price. -.-' haihhh i think i'm just gonna look for a billionaire husband. yea not millionaire but billionaire :D then i'll never feel bad bout spending money. then again i wanna marry a chef. hmmm, a chef who eventually becomes a billionaire lah. lol, now if only i have hope that this will actually happen. it's just too good to be true. 

if she's amazing she won't be easy, if she's easy she is not necessarily gonna be amazing, if she's worth it you won't give up and if you give up, you're just not worthy 

watching you's the only drug i need...

moving on :)

i felt like i had a lot to say but now that i'm actually here i have nothing. oh well it's not like this is the first time it's happening. just came back from la salle's i.u day and im totally exhausted. went to school before that for drama practice. can i act? i dunno, i guess. unfortunately both the parts i wanted were given to some other people cause they we so call better. hmmph. i'm not saying i was but ok maybe i was! but whatever lah, as long as i still have a part. i'm the judge which is a total nobody actually but screw it, as long as i get to skip classes for practice and get a cert, i don't mind. 

i hate two faced bitches. whats the point of acting nice to some people and then showing your true colours to others? what i mean is, why bother talking and trying to act normal to a person whom you're just gonna go behind and complain about? might as well you just don't talk to the person right? soome people are just lame and lifeless. i know i've said i'm lifeless but the lifeless i mean is seriously, well, lifeless. lol. anyways, today's schedule is totally packed. like i mentioned, i jut came back from school/la salle i.u day and in a few hours time, i'll be going to talitha's house warming. damn, i should've slept a lil while. too late now cuz my friends are coming over and my room looks like shit! well it always does, thats why i never want to invite anyone but this time i had no choice! damn lah, it's so small some more! well too bad. i warned them but they still wanted to come so they asked for it. haihh who am i kidding! i better go do something bout it. 

you are freakin hot! too bad you're short though. hmm, but i guess i can push that issue aside. for now :D

watching you's the only drug i need...