tis the season to be jolly! :D

so far, my christmas preparations have been quite hectic. i'm not complaining though, it somehow keeps the spirit of christmas alive for me. i have been shopping like mad but obviously i'm not complaining since it's not everyday i get to do that. decided to wear something simple this year so, nope, no dress. didn't bake much this year due to the lack of time as we've been busy painting our rooms and all. well we didn't paint it but still, obviously we couldn't bake in a very messy, paint smelling environment right?


i also decided to join my BEC's caroling this year. i gotta admit i felt a little out of place at first since everyone else probably already knew each other and i did feel stares coming my way but it got better. it was a good thing that my brother decided to follow, plus, martin and jeremy were also there so yeah, i ended up enjoying myself :)

Besides BEC caroling, there's also choir practices at church for the Christmas play that we'll be having on Christmas Eve which btw is tomorrow!! :D hopefully things will turn out perfectly and we get to touch the hearts of people watching us. i doubt, but it wouldn't hurt to hope.

Also, there was caroling at Klang Parade, which was an interesting experience. We sang carols for the whole mall to hear and it was nice to have people stopping to watch us. I don't really know how we sounded but i'm guessing we did okay since no one actually gave that 'who the hell is singing' face. lol, and we did get applause  from the shoppers so yeah :)

 The Curve :)

 Klang Parade :)

watching you's the only drug i need...

shake that bottle and make it pop ;)

nope, i do not want to and won't pop.




you know how people say you shouldn't bottle everything up inside of you cause one day everything's just gonna pop out and that's bad? well i say bullshit. okay i might be saying this because that is exactly what i do but i don't see whats the point of expressing yourself. expressing involves feelings and sometimes, emotions. two things i would rather avoid at any cost. yes, i'm a person who keeps things to herself and find it hard to pour my heart out? okay that sounded cheesy, i know, but it's true. 

watching you's the only drug i need...

updates

updates on my holidays :)

last week, wasn't that great. nothing turned out as planned and i just wasn't in the best of moods but, this week however is going perfectly fine. so far. 

First there was the leprosy visit, which was a really nice experience. i got to admit that at first i was a little scared to meet the people and all but everything turned out wonderful as soon as we got there. they were all so nice and some of them were quite friendly. there was this one man in particular who was just really nice. he started talking about his life before he found out he had HIV Aids and spoke openly about how he think he got infected. Before leaving he also wished me luck in my studies and told me to stay away from drugs so yeah. it's sad to think that there so many nice people who do not deserve a life of sickness and pain and yet they go on with life like nothings wrong and they still praise God. faith. now that is something. 

in the car, on the way back to church :)

and then there was yesterday. my cousins and I planned an outing to sunway lagoon and had we ended up having a blast! we made t shirts and everywhere we went, people just kept looking. it was nice to hang out with them, all youngsters, no parents, no rules. :)

watching you's the only drug i need...

run baby run

i need to get out. being at home is just killing me. i have nothing to do and nop, studying is definitely not an option. don't ask me why, i don't know myself..

there are times when i just feel so used. backing out would be a good option. :/

watching you's the only drug u need...

stuff

A lot has happened but i'm just never in the mood to blog anymore. i don't know if it's pure lazyness or i'm just getting fed up of blogging but i shall not kill this thing! hopefully. 

so yeah like i said, stuff happened. first thing first, camp. after much anticipation the day finally came, and went, but yeah, it was all good :) i had fun. the place wasn't bad, the food was okay and the talks were REALLY good. to be honest though, for me, the first one made more of an impact on me. this one was more like an eye opener to the fact that i'm blessed. 

after camp was Beqah's sweet 16. :) it was, fun and unexpected. yeah, that's the word. didn't really eat, i don't know why. it was fun dressing up though. bought this cute red skirt at Nichii, Deirdre bought the same one in pink so yeah we both wore it. :) 

went to Palace of the Golden Horses last tuesday with my family, it was nice to have some family time and just, bond together. went swimming and also checked out their oh so awesome gym. i really need to go there more often. 

so yeah, so far holidays has been interesting. not great but definitely not bad. anyways, gonna go sleep.

watching you's the only drug i need...

sink it in!

there's no point in waiting for something that's probably never gonna be yours is there? so before something goes wrong, walk away. walk away like you have nothing to lose. i'm sure you'll end up finding something that can match up to it, or maybe even something better. well i hope so anyway. :)

watching you's the only drug i need...

i am one happy girl :)

finally bought a new phone and trust me, when i say finally i really mean FINALLY! my old was was seriously just dying. did you know that choosing a phone is just so tough? it literally took me months to decide on what i wanted and i ended up buying something else instead. i'm not complaining though. there's just so many choices and being a fickle minded and also a choosy person does not help one bit. anyways, after contemplating with myself and also with the help of my darling daddy i decided to buy sony xperia neo v. he was like "if you're gonna get a phone might as well get one with the latest features" so thank you pa :)

pretty aint it? i really didnt want a full touchscreen phone at first but then everything else was so old so i thought what the heck. i'll get use to it. hopefully. well looks like this is all. see ya :)

watching you's the only drug i need...

and that's why i smile :)

it's been quite a carefree and happy week. i don't really know why but this week has just got me feeling well, happy :) i've been having this positive aura for some unknown reason and it is so not me but i like it. makes me feel calm.

okay so it wasn't thaaat carefree when i had to finish up my moral kerja amal all in one day but pushing that aside, the week has been pretty non stressful. yesterday was officially our last day of school. i can't believe a whole year has gone by and to be completely honest, i am so not ready to become a form 5 and deal with all the stress for spm but back to yesterday, i had tons of fun with my oh so crazy friends. we were just goofing around and talking about things and it was nice to just hang out at the canteen. felt like it had been awhile since we last got together. it's probably not that long ago but i dunno, i just feel that way. what can i say, i can't live without my friends. way cheesy but true :)

watching you's the only drug i need...

i hate everything about you

jealously. 




it's so normal these days. i know it's supposed to be a sin and it's just not good but i'm only human. i hate being jealous. i know i shouldn't and that it's wrong and it just drives me up the wall sometimes when i have no reason whatsoever to be jealous but i just am for god knows what reason. i got to just start accepting things for the way they are and just believe that everything happens for a reason but why is it so hard sometimes? 




is it my fault for wanting to feel special? 

watching you's the only drug i need...

there goes all the food :/

i.look.fcking.ugly. 


got my braces done and the thought that i have to look like this for at least 2 freakin years?! ugh, horrible. i just do not want to talk. ever. okay yes, i'm exaggerating and i'm pretty sure i'll get use to it in awhile but till then i shall just moan in despair.

watching you'd the only drug i need... 

deepavali/birthday

so far exams have just been blehhh. i don't really know how to describe how it has been mostly because i can't and don't want to remember. anyways, on deepavali break now. thank gosh for that, 

deepavali was, okay. went shopping the day before at Kl, Central and bought a punjabi suit. i also saw quite a number of hot guys :D deepavali was fun because of the food. ate till i just could eat no more. all the murruku and mutton did me good. :)

and the day after was... MY BIRTHDAY! at first it was just soooo boring. i mean, it was like any other day. had practice at church for cathecatical night till about 5pm and just came back home and slept. but later at night my oh so darling siblings and friends surprised me. i kinda saw it coming but then again, it was still a surprise and it turned out to be the awesomest birthday ever so yeah, i'm grateful for that. too lazy to upload the pictures or to elaborate what happened so another time i guess. ttfn :)

i can't take one more step towards you, cause all that's waiting is regret.

watching you's the only drug i need...

bye bye A's

I'M SCREWED. 




uh huh, that's all i have and can say. i haven't been progressing at all, nothing's entering my useless brain and, and, I've just been slacking okay?! all my hopes of maybe, just maybe getting a scholarship if i do well for spm is just gone since your form 4 finals also plays a huge part in getting one it seems. :( i dunno, it's seriously too late now so all i can do is just sit for this stupid exams and get it over and done with. oh and to also warn my parents about my marks which will probably be not that great. :/ 

why does this seem to good to be true?

uuhhh so i'm finally done with all the appointments that i have to go through in order to get my braces on and well, it's coming! in two weeks time. all i need to do is go for extraction and then the week after that, i'm gonna be in braces. god, i can already imagine the unwanted attention that i'm gonna get! and also the fact that i'm gonna look so ugly! why didn't i just do this earlier? 

watching you's the only drug i need... 

problematic child :/

i cannot study, don't ask me why, i seriously just cannot. i hate the fact that i get distracted oh so easily and just poof! i end up doing something else. opening my books is not the problem because i actually get pass that. it's the absorbing all the information in that's the problem and it's just frustrating! i have the urge and feeling of wanting to study so what the hell is stopping me? 

I NEED TO FOCUS!!

i seriously think i need to go for a brain scan. :/ 

watching you's the only drug i need...

Arthur's Day 2011

i was supposed to post about Arthur's Day last night but i totally forgot and instead posted about life and my maid -.- sooo yeahh i shall now blog about how awesome the day was :D


Arthur's Day this year was on the 23rd of September. I have been going for 3 years in a row thanks to my dad but to be completely honest, i wasn't that excited to go this year. in fact i didn't mind not going but i didnt want to waste the tickets so i thought might as well right? so yeah, we left around 4.45p.m and the journey there was definitely fun. it was jeremy, rafael, my sister, my sister's friend, and myself all in jeremy's Kelisa. Jeremy and Rafael kept changing the songs that were playing on the radio cuz Rafael wanted to listen to pop but typical Jeremy wanted old school so we ended up listening to Elvis. oh and there was this one part where we were on the highway and Jeremy literally stopped the car at the side like there was something really important that he had to do. i thought he wanted to check his tyres or something but then he asked me to get off and it turned out, he wanted to adjust his speakers at the back which apparently wasn't 'bombastic' enough. at the highway!! -.-' hahaha, Anne joined us at KL and we were literally cramped up in the car like sardines! 


after finally reaching Speed City, KL, we met up with Beqah and Elaine. While we were entering, Jeremy was too busy thinking of ways to sneak in to the VIP cause well, thats where all the booze are, but eventually my friends and I just got fed up so we went with the crowd together with Rafael and got ourselves a good spot. we were standing right in the middle surrounded by hot guys :) it was like, everywhere i turned there was always someone really hot standing there! aahhhhh the view :D lol, we had fun. we screamed like nobody's business, laughed our ass off, and danced like there was no tomorrow! there were quite a number of local bands and artistes performing before Taio Cruz came but i think one of the best was Red Dragon, Mizz Nina and Taio Cruz obviously. 

the concert ended around 12.30 a.m. after sending Anne back, we went to Esso mamak to have our so called  dinner. the journey back was just so funny. Jeremy kept swearing on the road and he missed a the turning to Anne's place twice so we were going in a big round circle twice! then he started honking his car to the beat of Akon's Boomerang which honestly sounded nothing like it but yeah. in the middle of the night! haha, then at the mamak he stared rubbing it in my face that i should have just stuck with him because he ended up sneaking in to the VIP with Anne and that they got free booze, food and also got to snap pictures with JJ and Ean. pffttt, whatever, we had fun partying too. :/  so in the end i reached home at exactly 3.48a.m. but this time my dad was okay with it cause we did after all go for a concert which was all the way at KL and we obviously had to go for dinner after that so yeah. plus i think he kinda trusts Jeremy. i dunno. lol.  

All in all, i had a blast and i am oh so grateful that my dad works at Guinness. Lol, i think i wanna go work there as part time after i finish spm. 






there's so much more that i have to learn, but if you're here with me i know which way to turn. you make it real for me :)

watching you's the only drug i need....

same old same old

helloooo :) i'm finally in the mood to blog again so lets see,




life. has been same old same old. i'm still not progressing with my studies. :/ i dunno why, but i just get distracted SOO EASILY and its just frustrating to think that everyone else can do it except me! i've just had a lot to think about lately and i just wish that all my feelings, worries and fear would all just go away. haihh, life is pretty depressing at times. 






okay moving on to the brighter side of things, i have one very happy news that i am just oh-so-greatful about. MY MAID IS BACK BABEHH!! and i thank heavens for that. honestly, the feeling i had when i saw her at home was just, priceless. life is soooo much more easier now. no more constant naggings from my parents saying i'm a spoil brat :D i don't actually think i am but then again, you can't really blame for having a maid all my life right?

watching you's the only drug i need...

random

nop, i did not forget. it's the 16th aaaaaaand........... it's Nick's 19th birthday!! :D LOL no, i don't craze him like how i used to but he was still my very first guy that i was totally obsessed with and wrote his name EVERYWHERE. like even on my school shoes. uh huh, so yeah, Happy Birthday Nick :) 

yes, i still think he's hot. :)

oh and did you know, his girlfriend is 8 years older than him? yup, 8 freakin years! i didn't think they would last long when i first heard but it's almost been a year and they're still going strong. hmmphh, as long as he's not with miley, i'm fine :)

watching you's the only drug i need...

saya anak malaysia :)

Attended Merdeka Walk today at Klang Club. it was quite fun, you know to walk the streets while some of us carried banners and Malaysia flags. the best feeling was when we actually got support by some drivers who honked their cars when they passed by. the path we took this year was quite long actually. it was so much shorter last year. anyways, we had the performances after that and umm, i think us Convent girls did okay. i mean we weren't good cuz it ended up a lil pitchy here and there but we were also not bad so yeah. memories of last year flooded back while i was performing and lets just say that was something i don't mind not remembering.  Honestly though, merdeka celebrations this year is just not that grand. i mean, whatever happened to flags hanging everywhere and people being so high spirited and proud? if this is how its gonna be, i'm so sure that in a few years time, no one is even gonna care about our National Day. sad. :/ 

i know, i sound damn patriotic right? hey, you suppose to love your country especially a unique country like ours where we live in peace and unity :) one last thing, SAY NO TO RACISM! :D

watching you's the only drug i need...

dream a little dream of me :)

watching you's the only drug i need...

shit long post

had quite an interesting day yesterday. okay so i started off the day by waking up at 1.15 p.m but it's excusable cause i reached home at around 3 a.m after attending my cousin's birthday party on saturday night. so anyways, after having my bath, my family and i straight went for lunch and i literally stuffed myself like a pig. after that, we did grocery shopping. yeahh my whole family had to follow, i don't know why. then came evening and after god knows how long, i finally went to church and attended mass. it felt really good to be there again. like i'm finally reconnected to God after quite some time but after mass was when the real fun began. Rebeqah, Jeremy and I went swimming at Rafael's place. it was kinda weird cause we were using the pool without the owner actually being there cause he had to go out for dinner with his family but we swam anyway and it was soo fun! the water was so cool and dark and jumping right in it was just awesome. what made it even better was that we were the only ones there so we had the pool all to ourselves :)

while swimming i realized how unhealthy and low my stamina was. yup, i was just, horrible! and to make it worse beqah and jeremy were just, swimming real fast and racing with each other. i was just like " pfft,whatever. show offs" hahaha. ooh and while we were swimming we were wrestling in the water and typical jeremy had to play his so called 'spit game' which is actually disgusting and beqah just had to team up with him so i was all alone. Basically what they did was spit at my face. uh huh, they accumulate the pool water in their mouth, come really close to you and spit right to your face! it was definitely something -.-' after about an hour and a half of swimming, we went for bah kut teh at Klang town which did you know is the best place to eat bah kut teh? so yeahh we were joined by Shivonne, Darren, Anne and Kaitlyn. oh and Alex too and after eating Shivonne told us that it was Leo's birthday the next day so she suggested that we buy a small cake and give him a surprise visit and so we did. well, we didn't actually get a cake because it was too late to get one at that time so we ended up buying a mini muffin and a lollipop as a candle from seven eleven. hey, none of us had that much of money and it was the only thing we could find at that hour so yeah, lol. oh and did i mention that it was raining? like real heavily. as if that wasn't bad, we couldn't park the cars in the apartment because we're not a resident so we had to walk, no wait, run from the shop-lots in front all the way to the apartment in the heavy rain and trust me, it was quite a long run. it was really fun though and by the time we actually got to the apartment, Leo saw us, soaking wet, from head to toe, shivering so there went our surprise. hahaha but i think he was surprised that we were actually there at that time.

so after changing to some dry clothes which his mom oh-so-sweetly determined to borrow us, we just sat and chit-chatted while and Jeremy and Rafael played the guitar. everything was okay until realization hit me and Beqah that it was way past our curfew. yeah, we informed our parents that we were gonna be a lil late because of the rain but the thing was, we weren't actually a lil late but we were VERY late. i reached home at exactly 2.33 in the morning and i knew i was in deep shit but come on, it's the holidays right? WRONG! all my mum said was "this is the first and last. no more."okay so to be honest, i expected a lot more lecturing and scolding from them but hey, i'm not complaining. i mean, i know my mistake and i'm not saying what i did was right and i also know that this was not the first time so yeahh here i am now not daring to plan anything for this holidays as i think i'm grounded and i'm okay with it i guess. i need some amount of punishment right?

whoa, i just realized how log this post is. i think even i am gonna skip reading a few sentences if i ever stumble upon this again! lol

watching you's the only drug i need...

the higher your hopes, the further you have to fall

hope: To wish for something with expectation of its fulfillment.

i seem to be lacking that. but then again, what's the point right? i look at things this way: the higher your hopes, the further you have to fall so to be on the safe side, just don't hope at all. i sometimes have people telling me to keep my hopes up high and to always look at the bright side of things but what they don't realize is when you're talking to someone who is probably one of the most negative minded person you can find, this is exactly how she is gonna be feeling and thinking. negatively. my dad says it's bad but this is my way of being on the safe side which actually makes sense. i mean, look at this way, just say you want something real bad and you get your hopes up really high only to find out that you didn't get what you wanted. you'll probably be devastated but in the same situation, if you didn't get your hopes up high and it didn't work out anyway, you just totally saw it coming right? and if it actually does work out and things happen you'll feel twice as happy. okay, am i making any sense?  i guess what i'm trying to say is i'd rather not hope for anything. and also that i'm a very negative-minded person so just deal with it :) huh, should have just gotten straight to the point :/

watching you's the only drug i need...

let the fun begin

i'm here at my cousin's place at seremban. parents went out with my aunt and uncle so they left us here with my cousins till sunday. imagine, young, mischievous, fun-seeking teenagers left all alone at home to do whatever they want. uh-huh things are gonna be interesting here. :) yeah, they did leave us with a whole bunch of advice, warnings and rules that we're suppose to follow but hey, rules are meant to be broken right? the only sucky part about me being here though is that i can't go for the world youth day celebration at St. Anne's Church this sunday :( me wanted to go!! oh well, you can't always get the best of both worlds :/ 




that smile of yours.... never fails to me wanna laugh my ass off! rofl, man i miss you :)

watching you's the only drug i need...

i am important :D

yeah, i like feeling important. then again, who doesn't right? but i guess in this case i really am not the important person. dayumn.

in life there are some things that you're gonna have to learn to accept. 

watching you's the only drug i need...

i want my licence already!

okay so the general knowledge quiz on sunday wasn't that great mainly because, well, we sucked. yeah we lost. :/ but then again looking back on that day, i did learn SO many new things and it was a good experience. it was definitely an eye opener as to what "smart" actually is. the participants there were really something. the only thing that was running on my mind while they were competing was "how in the world do they know this?!" lol, yeah they're knowledge on general stuff was pretty high!

guess what happened yesterday? me and my cousin were on our way home from my uncle's place at around 11.45pm. we were just talking when suddenly this white Gentu car just sped in front of us at a T-junction. luckily my cousin hit her brakes to avoid hitting the car but the driver of that car also stupidly hit her brakes for i don't know what reason so yeah, my cousin ended up banging her car anyway but it was so totally not our fault. there weren't any severe damage but the front hood of my cousin's car does look bad. Thankfully no one got hurt and the other driver wasn't pissed cause, well, it is her fault! the experience was definitely something though. i mean everything literally happened in a blink of an eye. ok so maybe driving is not as easy as how i thought it would be :/ but still, just think of all the places i can go without counting on people to send me and also fetch me back once i get my licence! ahhh the bliss. 

me don't wanna go for tuition. not only am i not done with my homework, i'm just sooooo lazy! maybe i'll go for physics later but then again, maybe not. i dunno, it's a public holiday! why in the world do we still have tuitions on public holidays? 

watching you's the only drug i need...

i'm telling myself i told you so

hello :) i finally have the mood to come here and talk about stuff.

okay first thing first, i cut my hair. uh-huh, my long precious hair that i cared about so much is now short. as in above my neck short. i teared as i walked out of the salon and by the time i reached the care i was already bursting into tears. i just thought it was too short at first but now  i'm not regretting though. i think. i mean it's so much easier now plus my hair actually looks thicker but then it kinda hurts when you have people telling you that you look so much better before. so what? i'm ugly now? but what the heck, you're suppose to find people who love you just the way you are right? :)





taking part in this general knowledge quiz by Rotary Club of Sunway which is tomorrow. i was all hyped up at first but i'n starting to realize now that it might not be as easy as i'm hoping it will be. i feel like there's still so much more that i don't know and i'm also feeling a little backtracked as my group members, laura and deirdre went to starbucks today to 'study.' if that's what you want to call it. was supposed to go but i just had to fall sick. i felt so weak that i just couldn't get off my bed and i have this really bad body ache :/ hopefully i'll feel better tomorrow. i'm keeping my fingers crossed too so that we might have a chance to at least make it through the second round.





i don't know why i waste so much time thinking and hoping for unnecessary things. i hate the feeling of how you get so used to someone and they become a small part of your life then just suddenly they just stop talking to you cause apparently they have a life other than you. so what? you just talk to me whenever you happen to stumble upon my name somewhere? wow, i feel so special. -.-' i so saw this coming.

watching you's the only drug i need...

hitam kuning, hitam kuning.. rofl!

ughhhhh can't sign in to facebook and i don't know why but this seems to make me feel so frustrated. no, i refuse  to accept the fact that i'm addicted to it cause umm well, i'm not. i know i can live without it. it's just when you can sign in, might as well sign in. right? but anyways since i can't waste my time on facebook might as well waste it here. i know, i know i could be using this time to study but what the heck. i know nothing's gonna be going in anyway. i needa have the mood. 






Malaysia's playing against Singapore. and they're losing :/ why can't we win in something? haihhh sad much but what i actually wanted to point out was i think it's really awesome how we all become united and show our semangat for Malaysia when it comes to football. i mean despite how people say our football team sucks and all, we still support for them like they're the world's best team or something, lol. i mean you should see the tweets on twitter! everyone's going crazy with their tweets about the match. it's also funny to read the amount of cursings singapore seems to be getting. i suddenly want a Malaysian jersey. too much semangat i guess, lol. 

i seem to have this sudden craving for watermelons :/

haha i know that was random. from football to watermelons but anyways imma go to bed now. need to wake up for school tomorrow so yeah, nite :)

is it too much to hope that maybe, just maybe, i'll cross your mind tonight?

watching you's the only drug i need...

life is all but rainbows and butterflies

if you really love him then do something, fight for him. don't just stand there and watch him fall for her instead..
-damnthisissotrue-

watching you's the only drug i need...

so close yet so far

okay i spoke too soon. luckiest person on earth, my ass! why does this always happen to me?! why is it that sometimes you get something you least expected which means ALOT to you and just like that, in a blink of an eye it just gets taken away. then whats the fucking point of getting it? getting my hopes up so high and then just let it crash and burn just like that :/ ugghhh life. it just sucks sometimes. i mean, the thought that i was so close to seeing him and now it's all just...... i should have seen this coming. i knew it was too good to be true. i know i know i probably sound like a loser, crapping all this shit here but this is my normal place where i ramble about unnecessary things right? plus i got no one else to complain to. no one gets it, they don't see why i'm making this a big deal. but whatever lah. ewww ok reading back this shit i just realised how emo i sound. i am emo-ing but still..... i should just go. this post is totally pointless anyways :/

watching you's the only drug i need...

pure luck :D

GUESS WHO'S THE LUCKIEST PERSON ON EARTH?! 






MEEEEEE!! :)




ok maybe that's a little exaggerated but whatever, and you know why? cause i freakin have a chelsea training session pass! i consider myself uber lucky for getting it cause the thing is tomorrow!! and i'm just sooooo hyped up about it. okay nooo i'm not a chelsea fan but who cares when torres is gonna be there! haahhhhhhh! ok i'm gonna start hyperventilating anytime now. to think that i'm actually gonna see him, live... whoa. seriously, i think i am so lucky. like really really lucky. :) okay i guess i'm gonna go show off to the world now, haha :) hey, you can't blame me for being this excited okay.. Fernando Torres here i come :D

hot much?? :D

watching you's the only drug i need...

i need sleep

it's been awhile :)
i always think i have so much to say but when i actually come here i always go blank. 
plus, there's also the laziness that never fails to kick in. 
i had quite a lot to crap about thailand but everything's just faded away now. i don't feel the excitement anymore so yeah. all i can say is that i had an awesome time. it was definitely memorable. i'll post the pictures some other time, if i ever have the mood that is. heh. 
okay i seriously had so much more to say but now i really don't know what. okay lets see loads if things happened like Deidre's party, wait did i already mention this in my previous post? hmm i don't remember but never mind  then there was installation. nothing great there actually and then, ummm canteen day. right! wasn't that great this year, i dunno why. i mean yeah i had fun and all but i just wasn't that into it. 






okay honestly, i don't get it. what's the point of starting a conversation when you're just gonna end up not replying or replying after err i dunno, two hours?! just don't talk to me then because it's kinda annoying. i mean it's nice to know that i actually crossed your mind and all but if this is how it's gonna be then just don't lah. no one's forcing you to do it you know. 






i'm really going through lack of sleep lately. i know sleeping late is bad especially if it'd for the wrong reasons but i really can't help it. my whole timetable has just gone haywire since last month. haihhh i miss those days where i used to go to bed at 10.30p.m :/  but then again, when i do sleep early, i still feel sleepy in the morning. i actually find it harder to wake up! weird i know but true. 






dad asked if i wanna replace him for tommorrow to go watch liverpool vs. malaysia. like heck yeah! i mean who wouldn't want to go?! but then again of all days why tomorrow? teacher ricky's having this party at his place tomorrow. i dont know why exactly but hey as long as there's food and the word 'party' in it, you can count me in :D lol, it's not like i wanna go so much but i bet it's gonna be fun and i kinda feel bad for my dad cause i think he only doesn't wanna go cause he thinks i wanna go so now i'm torn between two. liverpool ir pool party? obviously i'll pick liverpool but then i don't actually have my own ticket! aghhhhhh what to do, what to do? ok i think i'll go discuss with my dad lah. i reaallly reaaalllly wanna go for chelsea though. TORRES!! :(




i'm not getting my hopes up too high. i know i shouldn't but it doesn't hurt to hope right?

watching you's the only drug i need...

packing. again! :/

going to Thailand tomorrow! i'm not THAT excited but excited enough i guess. i just wish more of my friends were following :/ i am totally not prepared to leave. at all. i haven't packed, i still don't have a list of things i need to bring, i haven't changed my money to the Thai currency and i haven't applied for the international roaming thing. great. hopefully i won't forget to bring anything.

i don't know why it's so hard to shop for jeans. it's either they don't have what i want, i don't like what they have or they just won't have my size! but anyways, i was shopping for jeans at Lee when a couple entered the shop. both of them were hot so yeah, they looked really good together and they picked a pair of jeans for each other which happened to be the same denim kind. it was seriously so cute to watch and i just couldn't help smiling to myself. having a boyfriend who is willing to go shopping with you is definitely a plus point :)

it feels really good to finally be able to look at you and feel absolutely nothing

watching you's the only drug i need...