not so merry christmas

yes, christmas is finally here!


i've been waiting fot it the whole year. i always do as a matter of fact but i guess sometimes i get a lil too excited and tend to forget how not so wow christmas can also be. for example here i am now blogging and on facebook expecting someone i know to come online and entertain me when it's christmas! i should be opening presents, stuffing myself with food, opening more presents and i dunno, having fun? i haven't even opened any presents yet! well, except the one from my parents which i wrapped myself only to open it a few minutes later. yea, i knew what i was gonna get. it was an accident actually. my maid was suppose to wrap it but she didn't know how and she also had no idea that it was for me so she asked me to do it. but still, i wrapped it myself for heavens sake! that's just sooo not fun. this definately isint how i expected christmas to be. all i think i'm just gonna go sleep. 

watching you's the only drug i need...

miracles happen once in a while :D

HALLELUJAH! 
7A's BABY!! 


i'm still in shock. this is like the bestest thing that has ever happened to me this whole year. honestly, what a way to end this not so great, in other words sucky year! ok so there i was as scared as ever and letting everyone else cut through me to get their results first cos well, everyone in front of me got straight A's and i was so scared that someone had to not get in my class right? what if one of that someone is me? but then manggai took it for me and she just started "woo-ing" and she like "see sheena, you did it!" and i was there like a total idiot with no expression on my face except shock. the only thing that was running on my mind was "please don't be a mistake, please don't be a mistake." yes, my self esteem is low. very low at times especially  when it comes to these kind of things. shocking thing was norliza, who's my class teacher, said that she's so proud of me and that i've definately worked very hard and that i'm an example of a person who never gave up! HAHAHA. me, an example?! pffttt. she probably said that because i only got 2A's for my trials. yea, i was that bad. oh well, it's all over now and boy am i glad. :)




yes, i teared. never thought i would. ever, but i did...

watching you's the only drug i need :)

stupid exam

i. am. freakin. out. literally. my hands are so cold and i'm not exaggerating, trust me. 

i'm scared. like really really scared. what if all my friends get and i'm the only one who didnt? that is like my biggest fear. no actually my biggest fear is getting 5A's 2B's. i dreamt about it. twice! please tell me that it's just a dream and not some kind of stupid sign or whatever. six a's is ok but five?! that's just bad. real bad. i doubt i'll be getting any sleep tonight.

sucky part bout tomorrow? i'm gonna be there early. like really early! gonna follow my dad when he's on his way to work. what in the world am i suppose to do there so freakin early? for all you know i might just get a heart attack, or fits or something! you never know what could happen when you're nervous. haha ok maybe i'm taking this way over the limit but i don't wanna go so early! what i want is to go back early so that people won't be able to ask what i got. haih, stupid exam. make people get all scared like it's the end of the world if you dont get straight a's. it's not, obviously but still, everyone keeps saying pmr is nothing and that it's so easy so if i don't get all A's how dumb am i? i mean if it's that easy i should be able to excell right? haih, this is just so depressing.

all i need is faith, trust and a little bit of pixie dust. damn i dont have pixie dust! -.-

watching you's the only drug i need...

yes i can crap. a lot

yea, im bored. and i felt like blogging suddently, i dunno why since i almost always have nothing to blog about other than my usual moanings. i just realised i do that a lot. damn i have got to stop. soo anyways, found this thingy and i think its funny so, yeaa. 

wanna know what i'm doing right know? i'm literally staring at my computer thinking if i have anything to say at all but i'm realising now that nop. i've got nothing. i should really go sleep. i'm starting to crap -.-

what if i don't get? 

watching you's the only drug i need :)

neal caffrey :D

i now find myself quite obsessed in watching white collar. why wouldn't i when the hero is ohmagosh freakin hot! you could say that the main reason i watch the show is because of him :)

i always wonder, is there a hot guy at every corner of a street in america? i mean they have countless movies,shows, advertisements, and in every one of it there will be at least one hot guy. why? how? it's so not fair. not that we don't have any hot guys here. of course we do but compared to them yeaaaa thery're way ahead. haih. 

blue eyed guys.... wow. seriously, they make me go all weak just by looking into them :)

watching you's the only drug i need...

you make me one happy kid :)

honestly i do. i know i've complaint and sometimes not intentionally say i hate them, i really don't. how could i when they give me everything i need? so yea i guess this post is for them eventhough they have got no idea that i even have a blog. i don't think my mom even knows what a blog is. lol. yes there obviously is a reason to why i'm saying this. i feel soo omg bad that i spent so much of their money for shopping. i couldn't help it, there were too many things i wanted and and it was so prettty. i think this is the best christmas. shopping wise i mean. 

i just wanted to say

thank you for all the ways

for the patience

for the endurance to raise me day after day

i will be your mildstone 

a testament to strength

from all the timeless love and energy you spent.

i<3 you 

watching you is the only drug i need...

i'm not smart. but i'm also not dumb

results are coming out next week.
great.
awesome.
that's exactly what i want so that everyone can ask me what i got on christmas!

well it's a whole other story if i get all A's but if i don't well there's the whole problem. i dont want people hogging all over me asking what i got and how i felt. everyone thinks i'm this smart ass freak who has never gotten lower than a B. hahaha well how very wrong they are. i'm like the total opposite! ok maybe not totally but i'm definately not that. i'm so freakin scared right now! i keep telling my prents i'm not and that i don't care anymore cos what's done is done but its all bullcrap! i'm a total mess here. i'm already crapping here who know's who else i'm going to moan to next. most probably my sister. she has got no choice but to listen anyway. haih

7A's 7A's 7A's... i need 7A's!

watching you is the only drug i need...

sales.. don't we all love them?

it feels awesome when you see something you like and the price is like whoa but then you find out that it's on sale and the price now makes you go yay! my point: I LOVE SHOPPING WHEN THERE'S A SALE. but funny how you feel like you've bought so many clothes but only to realise "that's it?!" when you reach back home to take off the tags. Being me, i got to admit that i'm a money minded person so i'll tell myself, that's enough for today but then totally regret it when i go home and that i should have bought something which i really wanted but stupidly didnt.

well, i'm done with my christmas shopping. i think. unless my mom wants to o some more which i have no complaints. lol this is like the earliest shopping i've done for christmas. so my dress this year is...... black. it's quite simple actually, like a mini dress so yea. my aunty started crapping on how you shouldnt wear black on chrstmas and yadaa yadaa yadaa but whatever. she's not my mum. thank gosh for that! i don't like people who are too superstitious. kinda annoying. oh yea, i've planned this year's theme colour and its... PURPLE! why? cos my hall is half purple and my dad bought these new lights which are also purple so a christmas tree decorated in purple would be perfect! i am a genius :) all i have to do now is plan with my mum.


why do i have to be a person who cares about other people's opinion more than my own?

watching you is the only drug i need

why do i try so hard to please everyone?

i hate it when i have to lie . 
especially when it was't even necessary. 

watching you is the only drug i need...

tis the season to be jolly :D

ITS.. DECEMBER!


i absolutely loove this month. who dosn't? tis the season to be jolly right? i mean come on, break from school, shopping, baking, shopping, caroling, shopping again and then there's putting up the christmas tree, decorations everywhere and presents!! i just can't wait. it would be awesome if it actually snowed here but too bad. I've already started humming christmas carols and planning this year's colours for the christmas tree. last year was blue ans silver so maybe this year will be green or red and gold.

sucky part bout this month... RESULTS! damn they had to come out this month. seriously. it's like totally gonna ruin my whole christmas if i don't get 7A's. to be honest, i don't really care what i get but i just don't want to be the only one not getting when all my friends are there celebrating their victory. plus, there's also my parents. i can tell that they really want me to do well. they may not show it and tell me they don't care but yeah right. obviously deep down they're gonna care like a lot! they're saying that it's gonna come out either on the 27th or 28th which probably means i'll be so freakin worried bout what i'm gonna get to actually enjoy my christmas but then again, if it came out earlier and if i dont get 7A's well, there goes my christmas cos i'm gonna be so bummed about it. let's just hope it dosn't dampen my christmas spirit. i really really don't want that. wonder what i'll get this year.. i really need a new handphone so i'm keeping my fingers crossed :)

everthing's okay now. right?

watching you is the only drug i need...