doing what i do best, being lifeless :)

it's the holidays and as usual, like any other holidays i've ever had, i'm bored. i always have things planned out on what i wanna do before the holidays but once their actually here, i just don't follow them. anyways, so since i had nothing better to do, i've been googling random stuff and one of it was things to do when you're bored so i'm just gonna list down  a few of the things i did. but before you go any further i might need to add another word so let me rephrase the sentence to stupid things to do when you're bored. yes, i actually did it :)

1. repeat the same word over and over until it loses it's meaning.
ok so i saw the word 'food' and so i started saying it again and again until i realised thats such a weird name to address what we eat isin't it? and it makes me wonder who created it? food. hmmm. ok so i also tried it with my name and it works better actually. never have i realised how weird the name sheena actually is.

2. have a gargling competition.
ok i know it sounds disgusting but hey, it was fun. as me, my brother and cousin were gargling, we tried to make each other laugh so that you get eliminated and loose and well, my cousin was the first to crank and then my brother which made me the champion :D I never thought i'd be as happy as i was in winning a stupid gargling game but winning is always fun. my brother was trying so hard to not laugh until he choked and spat on my cousin. hmmm, it sounds disgusting here but it was actually funny when it happened.

3. try doing a cartwheel
i've always wanted to know how to do it but i just never could but that doesn't mean i'm giving up. as they say practice makes perfect so yea, all i need is a lil practice. ok maybe a lot of practice since i'm nowhere in this. i'm just too scared i'll brake my neck or something but pushing all those negative thoughts aside, i tried aaand it was nothing like a cartwheel. LOL i just learnt the basic which is trying to stand on your arms and balance so all i need to do is master that and BAM!, i'll be able to do it :)

4. try spinning a ball on your finger for a whole minute
now it may look easy but its so not. i always thought it was cool how basket ballers could do it so easily. i can do it but not that long so yea, trying to make it spin and stay on your fingers should keep you occupied for a few minutes. 

5. waste your time playing "Plants vs Zombies"
yea, totally not benificial but hey, i am listing down stupid things to do when you're bored. once you start playing, you actually find it kinda addictive. i think it's because it's such an easy game so losing shouldn't be an option and when you actually do loose, you just can't believe it and wanna play all over again just to prove that you do not suck in the game. now, i'm not a person who wastes her time by playing games but this one, i dunno, it's just addictive.


so there you have it. some of the stupidest things i have been doing so far to kill time. of course i don't do it the whole day as i have tuition and school homework plus now that my maid is gone, there are tons of chores to be done at home but you can't blame me for being lifeless and wanting to do all this things. I'm just being me but maybe next time i should list down some beneficial things that you can do during the holidays.

watching you's the only drug i need...

just don't catch me

before i fall too fast
kiss me quick but make it last
so i can see how badly this will hurt me
when you say goodbye
keep it sweet, keep it slow
let the future pass and don't let go
but tonight i could fall too soon under this beautiful moonlight


but you're so hypnotizing
you've got me laughing while i sing
you've got me smiling in my sleep
and i can see this unraveling
your love is where i'm falling
but please don't catch me..


see this heart won't settle down
like a child running scared from a clown
i'm terrified of what you'll do
my stomach screams just when i look at you 
run far away so i can breathe 
even though you're far from suffocating me
i can't set my hopes too high
cause every hello ends with a goodbye


but you're so hypnotizing
you've got me laughing while i sing
you've got me smiling in my sleep
and i can see this unraveling
your love is where i'm falling
but please don't catch me


so now you see, why i'm scared
i can't open up my heart without a care
but here i go, it's what i feel
and for the first time in my life i know it's real

but you're so hypnotizing

you've got me laughing while i sing

you've got me smiling in my sleep

and i can see this unraveling

your love is where i'm falling

but please don't catch me

and this is love please don't break me,

i'm giving up, so just catch me

-demi lovato-

but i'm not afraid to fall if you're the one who catches me :)

watching you's the only drug i need...

damn me for not studying!

just went through first term exam and boy was it horrible! ok well to be very very honest, the questions were direct and easy but, yes, there's always a but, i didn't study which means i was totally not prepared which explains why it was horrible. damn, if only i did. i'm really really 99.9% sure that i'm gonna fail my add maths. i just left a whole page blank. why? because i bloody hell forgot the working for the stupid questions! so stupid, seriously, sooo stupid! i mean i'd understand if i just didn't know how to do but forgetting how to do it?! haihhh. so my hopes for this exam is really very low. i'm praying for an A for at least english and chemistry. i NEED an A for chemistry! i'm so not letting this happen again. i need to be prepared for the next exam! i can't be doing last minute revisions again. i really don't wanna look like the dumb one in my class not that don't already look like that but well, i need to change that. i can be kinda smart. hopefully. why is it so hard to study?  don't get it. some people do it so easily but when it comes to me i just get so lazy and keep procrastinating. damn me for being a slacker.

watching you's the only drug i need...

i love feeling happy :)

ok so last saturday was a real hectic day. had health awareness campaign in the morning and elaine's birthday party in the evening. health awareness was umm ok. the first talk was actually quite ok as it was about breast cancer but the other two, yea i didn't really pay attention. the senam robik thing was fun though. i never really participated in any of the senam robiks held by the school but this one was fun. i actuallyu found myself following all the moves. all in all the day wasn't that bad. i'm not sure if you could say it was a success as most of the people were from convent itself and there were only a few other school interactors but hey, it's better than nothing.



and then elaine's party. it was the awesomest party ever! at first it was kinda awkward when the guys came cause we didnt really know what to do but everything was ok once we started with the games. everyone looked hot and i seriously felt damn shitty but i'm starting to get use to it. you have to when all your friends are just so omg hot. so depressing sometimes. so all in all it was an awesome day. went home at around 11.40 pm. i honestly though i was gonna get in trouble but thank gosh my dad didn't say anything. i have pictures but i'm not really in the mood to upload any so no need lah. some other time.



i don't know why but i'm in an awfully jolly mood today. for once in what seems like a very long time, i wasn't annoyed or sad or pissed and i definitely didn't feel awkward so yay. i hope things stay this way. exams are next week. ugghh, i'm so totally not prepared and when i mean not prepared, i literally mean it. i am like totally clueless in almost all the subjects especially sejarah, modern maths, add maths and physics! i think the time has finally come for me to fail something (add maths or physics or maybe even both) damn me for never paying attention in class! no actually it's not my fault. ok maybe it partly is but whats the point of paying attention when you just know you're not gonna understand anything the teacher's about to teach. most of my teachers this year suck. shit lah, i should reaally be worrying bout my exams but here i am facebooking almost everyday which i have really got to stop before i become addicted and well, i should be studying but noooo i always seem to find something else i wanna do so call before i wanna study but just end up not studying at all.
i think i should tell notify my dad now itself that my marks are gonna be quite dissapointing. then he won't be that surprised when he actually sees it.

i wanna watch a sunset...

is jealousy a sin? i hope not

watching you's the only drug i need...