ignorance is your new best friend

i really dont know what to say anymore. i'm starting to think i should delete my blog but i dunno, i did that once and found myself coming back here again so whats the point right? plus i feel lazy to type out what i feel and what happened. i'm getting fed up. and when i say fed up i don't just mean blogging but with everything else as well. i know i keep saying i'm not gonna care anymore but seriously this time, i'm really not gonna care anymore. this is the real deal starting this very second. you asked for it. I've tried and nothing seems to be going the way i planned so i'm just gonna give up. i know giving up shouldn't be an option but sometimes, it's just better if you do. i think it's so unfair and idiotic how i care so much bout peoples feelings and trying to make this right but they just go around like you mean nothing to them and you yourself know thats so not true and they find pleasure in making you feel bad. that especially is very very stupid and inconsiderate. if you wanna make me feel bad do it in front of me not behind my back. don't go acting all nice in front of me then later on go telling you stupid, idiotic and completely useless friends that you don't give a shit about me anymore! urgghhhhh you make me so mad! what do you want? seriously, what? oh wait, i'm not suppose to care anymore. rightt. snap out of it sheena! 

unless, you do something. and when i mean something i don't mean being a two faced bitch

watching you's the only drug i need...

i hate it when i'm PMS-ing!

i don't know why but i find this picture very calming. i wish i was someplace alone. feel the peace and tranquility of this world which seems to be lacking in my life. i know this has nothing to do with my title but i just felt like i needed to say it. it's so not fair that we girls have to suffer and the guys just get nothing. 

girls get period pains, why don't boys get a kick in the balls once a month? ~facebook :)

what's the point of faking a laugh when all i wanna do is just cry? 

watching you's the only drug i need...

i'm human too!

i hate valentines day. well maybe just this year..




i feel like i have so much to say but it's all just fading away now. got no mood :/ and besides, what's the point of talking about something thats gonna make you feel depressed so yea, whatever. i'm just not gonna care anymore.   huh, easier said than done. 




all i wanna say is was that really necessary? i have a heart too. stop thinking that i don't give a damn about it. i do and you have got no idea how much it hurts me. if that was for rubbing it in my face and making me feel like shit well congratulations, it worked. now that this is all over and done with, i can actually have something else to feel shitty about. not this. ok if given a choice i don't want anything to feel shitty about but like that's just too good to be true in life. 




you know what, you're welcome. oh and go to hell :)

watching you's the only drug i need...

to me it's just another ordinary day

valentines day tomorrow. everyone's talking bout what they should do for their loved ones and how they're gonna spend the day. i think it's really sweet how people take this day seriously. you know, cracking their head on how to make it romantic and memorable but then again i also find it kinda overrated. i mean it's actually just another ordinary day and every year i see couples being all lovey-dovey in the car and on the streets. i bet they're not like that on any other day so why specifically on valentines day? shouldn't you be like that everyday? oh well, since valentines day is supposed to be spent with your loved ones, that's exactly what i'm going to do. spend it with my friends. well if you really look at it, i only have a friend for tomorrow which is laura but yea. she's good enough. lol 




i'd actually be surprised if you did something. people say i shouldn't but i would... 

watching you's the only dug i need...

I love biology :D

Biology tuition is so fun :) i find myself enjoying the lessons and not bothering why time moves so slow which for me never happens, neither at school nor tuition so that's something. he's so funny :D


so i went to say hi to my dad as he just came back from work and according to him my face looked troubled which i don't think it did as i probably had my 'omg i'm so sleepy, can i just sleep' face on but yea so he asked if something's wrong and if  there's anything i should talk about it cause it'll help and i shouldn't think that it's awkward to talk about teenage things to your parents. o_o all this just because i had my sleepy face on? wow. so i had to convince him that everything's fine and i'm not dilemma-ing or whatever. parents, what weird creatures. i don't think i'll ever fully understand them.



i think my dad thinks i like someone. -.-'

watching you's the only drug i need..

i sort of don't agree. i think

well, i don't really agree but at the same time i think i do. i mean sometimes, even though you talk alot about a person you still hate them. ok well maybe not hate, more like dislike so yea talking about the person you don't really like doesn't actually make you like them. but then again, what if you just never thought of anything of this person, like you just never bothered and you suddenly find yourself talking about the person more then usual, then how? is it possible that maybe you're starting to like the person? hmm, weird :/

i just realised that this post has got me using "the person" a lot. it's weird reading it again and again. lol. anyways i don't want people jumping to conclusions bout anything cause i know someone will so i just wanna make it clear that this is something i happened to see somewhere that made we wonder if it's true. i'm not actually agreeing to it or anything so yea whatever you have in mind, it's not that :p well at least i don't think so. haha, that's right, you could be right, then again you could be wrong. ok i'm starting to crap. some other person reading this will probably think i'm a retard cause it sounds like i'm talking to myself. well if there even is any other reader. 

watching you's the only drug i need...

you make me smile :D

i never thought i'd say this but it's true. i dont know how you do it but you always seem to know how to make me smile even when i'm in such a bad mood. even the simplest thing you do works so thank you. i love you, and i'm really glad i met someone like you even though you can be a lil annoying and selfish sometimes. heh heh no offence. i still love you :D

watching you's the only drug i need

yes, i am still a liverpool!

i hate everything that has got to do with anything! seriously, i'm so devastated. all i wanna do is just go to my room and cry. why? because stupid torres had to freakin move to fuckin chelsea! UUUGGHHH this is sooo annoying! one minute i'm all sad then all of a sudden i'll feel so fucking angry that he actually moved to a team who's been loosing a lot lately anyway. i mean yea, they're still way higher then liverpool but so what? i mean, you're suppose to stay true to your team right? haihh i don't even know why but i feel like crying. i know, i know it's so stupid but i mean come on, one of the only reasons i find myself so intrigued in watching liverpool's matches is because of him and in a way he's the reason why i love watching football. he taught me to love the game. wow, i'm retarded. i'm moaning over someone who doesn't even know i exist. great. haihh i feel so i dunno, hurt? all i can say is he's gonna look like shit in his blue jersey! and, and, he gave away his number 9! he has it tattooed on his arm and he just gave it away? hmmph. ass! so much for wating to play for liverpool as long as he can!

i'm just gonna post some pictures of him now. look back at the great times :(

and of course, who can forget his oh-so-adorable wonderful bitchfaces that he does

haihh, why'd he have to go and break all our hearts?

                                            

nothing lasts forever but i somehow wish it did. :(

watching you's the only drug i need...