start accepting, people!

Here we are now, us Malaysians with 53 years of freedom. We have this new concept thingy called 1 Malaysia but not many people actually believe in it. maybe that's because we don't actually potray this. 1 Malaysia is suppose to be about acceptance. acceptance among us multi racial people where one race embraces the other races without looking at their colour, language, tradition or belief so that we will be able to live with mutual respect for each other as a nation. we got our independence together as one so why are there people who still think that the other races were never a part of us being where we are today? we are are what we are today because we worked together not one race more and the other less. i don't know why there are some people who only cares about their race and look down on others. this is not your country alone. its ours. so why don't you just wake up and start behaving like how us malaysians are suppose to behave. with acceptance.


huh, lets just hope all this racism and kutuk-ing other races or religion stops because it's just well, very bastardlike and annoying. anyways, moving on to not so touchy matters umm merdeka walk. right. the walk was awesome. we walked around Klang with Jalur Gemilangs, singing patriotic songs and shouting "merdeka!" There were drivers who would honk their vehicles as loud as ever and wave at us. it was wonderful looking at the spirit us interactors and also some of us malaysians had. there were also some people who just passed us looking at us like we were freaks or something. like wth? thinking about it, i'm actually proud that i got to do something like this instead of just sitting at home lazying around doing nothing.


so after all the walking with our faces drenched with sweat and screaming the hell out of us, it was time for the performance! as usual, something just had to go wrong. we couldnt play our minus one so we had to sing without music oh and to make things worse, the mike system was kinda sucky. Luckily, scott borrowed a guitar from someone so he'll play while we sing but he did'nt know how to play the chorus. that's when it hit me that we were totally screwed. why? umm lets see, we only practised for more or less two hours, a day before we had to perform so we sometimes mixed up the words, no music and the audience probably won't be able to hear us cause we're not using a mike. great huh?


well we went up there anyway and sang. yeeaaa, the first part wasnt that great. oh who am i kidding, it was horrible! but lucikly after the rapping part and the final chorus parts, it was kinda okay. like not that bad. i think. i was just trying not to look at anyone and thinking to myself when i was singing. i was like, "uuu look at the grass, it's so green here and then look at nicole, beqah, and then thinking oh wow i'm embarrsing myself in front of a hot guy, great!" hahaha, yea all those things were in my mind when i was singing. well, i'm just glad that's over and note to self: never ever in your freaking mind do something like that again!

you're amazing just the way you are <3

i hate umbrellas!

crazy and retarded. two very simple words to describe today. went to nicole's friend scott's house after school with nicole and rebeqah to practise for tomorrow's merdeka walk. we're singing "Here In My Home!" so yea, we walked there from school. he lives in taman gembira btw and yea that's not exactly near but not so far also lah. so on the way we started being well, retards. we started singing songs from spongebob. well actually we were singing the "campfire song" again and again and again literally screaming out the song on the road side like it was our father's road or something. lol. then we finally reached his place and whoa he has a huge house! so yea after all the 'practising', ok well we didnt do much but still something right? we had to walk back to school again. best thing was it was starting to rain and we had to walk quickly so that we won't be late. so we borrowed two umbrellas and i just had to get the huge one. it was seriously big and well honestly speaking i dont really know how to use an umbrella cause i'll just end up hurting the person beside me with it. haha poor beqah, she jadi mangsa! mwahaha. anyways, we continued our journey. with the singing of course and it was even louder and crazier this time. screw the people who looked at us weirdly. oh and in the end i had to bring the umbrellas home -.- i had to be the nice one. haha. well lets hope all our practise pays off tomorrow. hope we'll perform awesomazingly :)

watching you is the only drug i need...

poker face

it's so hard to kep smiling
and denying what i feel
i don't know why,
a thousand reasons i have none;
i can't go on like this,
pretending everything is fine
when all i wanna do is just cry...

watching you is the only drug i need<3

so close yet so far

okay, so trials are over. finally. now to just get pmr over and done with. life is just so pressuring at the moment. Anyways, so today was our last paper for trials, KH. Since our exam was starting late, i was just going through and doing last minute revisions when a teacher came in asking where was her book as she misplaced it in our class. i had to bring myself into trouble and said that i saw a teacher taking the book. how was i suppose to know that coincidently, the two teachers cant get along. after that was total drama. me and beqah was brought to the principal's office cause we were the witnesses. it was so awkward in there. i
felt like i did a crime or something. the funiest part was she was right there in her seat checking her pens to see whether they were filled and we were just there trying not to laugh. there was a world map there so we started naming countries while she was just there. we even started comparing her to Dumbledore. yeaa, so not like him. he's so much cooler. so yea i think what i'm trying to say is, who knew even teachers have drama going on in the teachers room.well, its nice to know something. after all, who dosent like gossip?

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of all the subjects, this?!

MATHS...a subject that i think i'll never learn to love. i totally

suck in it. no matter what i try to do, nothing goes in my so called

brains. its just so frustrating sometimes!

 

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is it that hard to order a roti canai these days?

it started out as a normal saturday morning where i tell
myself "okay i'm gonna wake up early and do some studying"
but it always ends up me snoozing my alarm. -.- anyways,
since that was a failure i got ready for tuition and waited
for daddy to come. i waited, and waited, and waited, until
eventually he came but ooops, i was freakin half an hour late!
it was just embarrasing entering the class and someone actually
said "wah damn early la!" pffft, yea rub it in my face will ya! all
i could do was give this clumsy apologetic look to my teacher.
after all that was over rebeqah, elaine and charenpreet decided
to go to moden to eat so i just tagged along as i wanted to try the
oh so famous roti canai which they say is the awesomest in klang.
to me it tastes like any other roti canai but yea. the funniest part
was when we wanted to order but no one was there as all the waiters
were i dunno at the corner somewhere. Beqah went first and called
"annai" but nothing. she tried it again by asking charen to turn and
her shouting so that it looked like charen was calling so that she
would'nt have to embarras herself but still nothing. that was when
we started with the name calling from annai to bhaiya to abang to
yo bro! *one malaysia mah..*but still nothing! like wth right? as usual
in the end i had to be the so called matured one *grins widely* and
just shouted "ANNAI!!" which made the people beside us stare. hehe
ooops but hey at least the man finally heard us :) oooh and we also
some hot guys xD after that was same old same old as i went back and here
i am now 'trying' to study.

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wake up call?

"to think i easy. to act is hard. but the hardest thing
is to act in accordance with your thinking"
-Goethe

ahh how so very true.. it's always easy to think or say what
you want but to actually make it a reality is not always that
easy. DETERMINATION is one way to solve it but too bad
i seem to be lacking in that. uurgh, WAKE UP SHEENA!!

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thanks for nothing

you're nothing but a balless ass. such a waste of time, seriously!

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second life

okay so here i am. again.
my addiction in reading random people's blog has nudged me again and thanks to that, i've decided to give this thing another shot. afterall, its all memories. you never know maybe in 20 years time i'll be reading this god knows maybe my kids would be reading this.. okay, skip that. so yea, i guess you get my point why i'm here again.
it may be a wrong time since i have pmr in about a month or so but ahhh... i can hit myself and regret later. lets just hope this time my blog wont be as dead as the last one.

p.s: i may need to warn you that i crap alot:)

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