THAILAND, HERE I COME!

went too the Thai Embassy today and it was definitely a memorable experience. we were brought to this conference room and treated like we were very important people. it was so cool. we just had a short briefing about Thailand, as in their culture, education level and FOOD :D yea i realized that all their food are spicy. there were three thai people who prepared the slide show for us and one of the guy was just plain hilarious! he was just so cute, with his thai accent! oh and he kept saying "OHMAGOSH!" while putting his hand over his mouth. hahaha he definitely kept me entertained. thank gosh i'm an interactor because i mean, come on, who gets to go to a diferrent county for free? it was all thanks to our hard work during charity talentdinner :)

anyways, came back home around 2pm and decided to watch kabhi kushi kabhi gham. don't ask me why, i just suddenly had the urge to watch that movie and thank gosh i did. i always tell myself that i'm not gonna cry because well, i watched the movie like god knows how many times but i end up crying like shit anyway :/ i just, couldn't stop crying! as a matter of fact, i don't remember the movie being that sad. hmm maybe i'm just overly sensitive. -.-' i should keep a note to self the next time i watch that movie : always have tissue and preferably a small pillow next to you so that you can cover your face when crying. lol.

ok i better go bathe. mom's gonna come and shout anytime soon, i can feel it.




shah rukh khan is just so freakin HAWT! who cares if he's 42? :)

watching you's the only drug i need...

thank god i have grown :)

just found my friendster profile and boy was i lame! HAHA. it's been like what? 3 years if i'm not mistaken. i looked so immature and ugly back then :/ and i never realized how boring that site actually is. ok maybe i did or else i'd still be wasting my time there but seriously, i don't see the point of the whole site. 




school holidays just started. LIKE FINALLY! no more horrible exams and lack of sleep. yea i still have tuitions but it's not that bad. maybe i should start going to taman rakyat again since i'm becoming very lazy lately. it's embarrassing to say that my stamina is just, well, disappointing. very disappointing. but that place is just filled with people i know and well, i'd rather be at someplace quiet where no one can see me and give the "you, jogging?" look. yea, i'm very insecure. anyways, i'm finding myself to be more and more lifeless, i find myself doing things that are just so not worth it and well, useless. i really don't know why i bother wasting my time doing these things. like right now, i'm just going through random peoples' facebook profile and when i say random i really mean random. like i don't even know them! i really need a new hobby -.-' 




i give up. i know you shouldn't but sometimes you just got to. i'm sick of trying to be like how you want me to just so that i can please you. i'm sick of trying so hard to not hurt you and i'm just sick of doing so much yet being so unappreciated. so yea, from now on all i'm gonna do is just shut up, ignore the nagging and just not care. ask me something, i'll answer you. want me to do something i'll do it but other then that just don't expect anything anymore. you asked for it. i tried too many times but you just never realized, hopefully someday you will though. sorry :/






why is it that it's so hard for you to notice all the nice things i do to make you happy but so easy to notice the mistakes that i unintentionally do? 

watching you's the only drug i need..

why you?

There I was again tonight, forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old, tired place lonely place
Walls of insincerity, shifting eyes and vacancy
Vanished when I saw your face
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered, "Have we met?" 

across the room, your silhouette
Starts to make its way to me
The playful conversation starts, counter all your quick remarks
Like passing notes in secrecy

And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up, 2 a.m., who do you love?
I wonder 'til I'm wide awake
Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say
It was enchanting to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that
This was the very first page, not where the storyline ends
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again
These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

~taylor swift - enchanted <3 ~

watching you's the only drug i need..

hope

i don't even know where to start. i totally embarrassed myself in front of everyone yesterday. i told them i didn't wanna do it and that i just couldn't but nooo they kept pestering me and i stupidly gave in and decided to do it and now look what happened :/ and then the bloody bastards can say it right in front of my face that it wasn't that great and i could have done better?! WTF? go to hell man. you bloody hell made me do it and instead of being grateful and trying to make me feel better even though you knew it was horrible, you tell me that i didn't do well? go do it yourself lah then or if you think there are others who could have done it better then ask them to do it next time. don't force me to do something i don't want to! ARGHHHH i feel like cursing everyone so bad till they just shut the fcuk up and mind they're own fcuking business. fuck you bitch




ok i should get my mind off that. screw em all. ok besides embarrassing myself, yesterday was also one of the most awesomest day ever. i love it when the unexpected happens :) everything was just perfect.ii know i should't care and i know i should have just ignored but hey, i'm only human and at that time, i just didn't know what to do. god i sound so lame and helpless :/

why oh why can't i dance? :(

watching you's the only drug i need...

epic failure

so far, every paper i have sat for has just been horrible. i really think i'll be lucky to even get an A for any subject. yea, even english was bad. i screwed up the guided composition part by not reading the question properly. shit lah. and chemistry.... it was, so tough! chemistry is one of the only subjects i actually have fun studying and i really thought i would be able to get at least 80, well that's what i aimed for anyway but after sitting for paper2, yeaaa that is definitely not gonna happen. i don't even think i'll be able to get a B+ and i haven't even sat for paper 1. yup, i did that bad. stupid chapter 3. if only i did more exercises on it... haihhh dammit.




i hate exam periods. then again, who likes it? i just get so worn out and dead. like my whole timing changes. i end up sleeping the minute i finish having dinner after tuition which is probably around 10.15 and find myself needing to wake up at around 2.15 in the morning to do my revision and then just rest my eyes for about 20 minutes before getting ready to go to school at 5.15 so by the time i home again in the afternoon i'll be dead tired but no, still no time to rest cause i need to feed my puppy and then get ready to go for tuition. -.-''' i guess what i'm trying to say is i only get about more or less 4 hours of sleep per day which is not good. at all. i'm just waiting for the mid-term break to start! i really need more time to sleep and laze around. what? i can't help being me :)




i have an ulcer at my tongue and it hurts like hell! like seriously, i can't talk properly, i can't drink water or even swallow my saliva and worse of all, i bloody hell can't eat! it sucks because i'll be freakin starving but i just can't chew or swallow anything but i can't just starve myself can i? so i have to, no wait, actually i'm forced to eat very little amount of food everyday and i hate it! i always eat whenever i want to as i get hungry quite fast and this stupid ulcer is just torture! Arggghhhhh just go away already! ok all this talking bout food is making me hungry. i'm gonna go eat my maggi mee :) i absolutely, positively LOVE  maggi mee :) hopefully i'll be able to eat :/




it's been awhile since i last cried :/ feels real good

watching you's the only drug i need...

there's just too many distractions!

i know, i know i should be studying but i just can't! i don't know what's wrong with me. i'm so gonna do horribly  for add maths. i was bloody hell wasting my time Google-ing some not so important things! ARGHHHH what is wrong with you sheena?! anyways, my brother was using the computer looking for something that has to do with football when he stumbled on this picture.....

SO EFFING HOT RIGHT?! and his kids are sooooo cute! they all would have looked sooo much better in a liverpool jersey but oh well :/ he looks so concerned bout his daughter. he must be one heck of a father. man, i love him. :) screw all those people who have been bitching bout him. no-lifers! hmmph. 

everytime i see you it get's more and more intense <3

watching you's the only drug i need...

exams started and so far, everything has been horrible. i haven't sat for most of the papers but i already dont wanna get the result cause i just know i'm gonna do bad. sejarah paper 2 was yesterday. ok honestly if you ask me, it wasn't thaaaat bad. i'm not saying it was easy or whatever but i still thought it was do-able. i went on facebook and almost everyone was complaining it was horrible and all and i'm like, really? hmmm ok maybe i just forgot how bad the paper was cause that tends to happen sometimes. guess i'll just have to wait for the results. anyways, so we copied during the exam. what? i couldn't just leave a 20 marks question empty! so yea, we exchanged answers but writing it down on tissue papers :) i know genius idea right? i never realised that it's actually damn easy to copy during exams. i mean i literally took my friends answer sheet to see what she wrote!






pushing that aside, i got a new puppy! :D i'm getting kinda fed up of saying this cause i also did it on fb and twitter but what the heck. he's just the cutest and most adorable thing ever! like honestly, i'm not a huge fan of animals and i really didn't want a new doggie but my brother kept on pestering my dad and obviously he always gets what he wants so my dad got him one. he's black on the top and white at the bottom. kinda like a domino. now, i have never been a fan of black dogs, but this guy, he's just, so furry and small and huggable! taking care of him is gonna be a huge pain in the ass though as he's only a baby and errr babies just shit everywhere. haihhhh i just know they're gonna make me clean it up. but i guess it's worth it. i think.

 isin't he just adorable? :D

 ooh and his eyes are so beady... :)

watchin you's the only drug i need...

mugger. i don't know if it's a word but yea, thats me.

exams this thursday :( i am so not ready! then again when am i ever. i'm such a procrastinator! ok so i skipped school today to do sejarah and thankfully i actually did something. feels good to know you actually did what you planned to do which doesn't happen very often when it's me. this whole mid term is three bloody weeks! i really don't know how i'm gonna revise for all 10 subjects in time which obviously mean i have to mug and i hate mugging! 

Ten Study Habits of Successful Students

1. Try not to do too much studying at one time.
   If you try to do too much studying at one time, you will tire and your studying will not be very effective. Space the work you have to do over shorter periods of time. Taking short breaks will restore your mental energy.
2. Plan specific times for studying.
   Study time is any time you are doing something related to schoolwork. It can be completing assigned reading, working on a paper or project, or studying for a test. Schedule specific times throughout the week for your study time.
3. Try to study at the same times each day.
   Studying at the same times each day establishes a routine that becomes a regular part of your life, just like sleeping and eating. When a scheduled study time comes up during the day, you will be mentally prepared to begin studying.
4. Set specific goals for their study times.
   
   Goals will help you stay focused and monitor your progress. Simply sitting down to study has little value. You must be very clear about what you want to accomplish during your study times.
5. Start studying when planned.
   You may delay starting your studying because you don't like an assignment or think it is too hard. A delay in studying is called "procrastination." If you procrastinate for any reason, you will find it difficult to get everything done when you need to. You may rush to make up the time you wasted getting started, resulting in careless work and errors.
6. Work on the assignment they find most difficult first.
   
   Your most difficult assignment will require the most effort. Start with your most difficult assignment since this is when you have the most mental energy.
7. Review their notes before beginning an assignment.
   Reviewing your notes can help you make sure you are doing an assignment correctly. Also, your notes may include information that will help you complete an assignment.
8. Tell their friends not to call them during their study times.
   
   Two study problems can occur if your friends call you during your study times. First, your work is interrupted. It is not that easy to get back to what you were doing. Second, your friends may talk about things that will distract you from what you need to do. Here's a simple idea - turn off your cell phone during your study times.
9. Call another student when they have difficulty with an assignment.
   This is a case where "two heads may be better than one."
10. Review their schoolwork over the weekend.                                                                                Yes, weekends should be fun time. But there is also time to do some review. This will help you be ready to go on Monday morning when another school week begins.

all of the above is the way a successful student studies. I on the other hand study like this : 

yup. i seriously think there's something wrong with my brain. i just can't help being a slacker!

watching you's the only drug i need...