damn me for not studying!

just went through first term exam and boy was it horrible! ok well to be very very honest, the questions were direct and easy but, yes, there's always a but, i didn't study which means i was totally not prepared which explains why it was horrible. damn, if only i did. i'm really really 99.9% sure that i'm gonna fail my add maths. i just left a whole page blank. why? because i bloody hell forgot the working for the stupid questions! so stupid, seriously, sooo stupid! i mean i'd understand if i just didn't know how to do but forgetting how to do it?! haihhh. so my hopes for this exam is really very low. i'm praying for an A for at least english and chemistry. i NEED an A for chemistry! i'm so not letting this happen again. i need to be prepared for the next exam! i can't be doing last minute revisions again. i really don't wanna look like the dumb one in my class not that don't already look like that but well, i need to change that. i can be kinda smart. hopefully. why is it so hard to study?  don't get it. some people do it so easily but when it comes to me i just get so lazy and keep procrastinating. damn me for being a slacker.

watching you's the only drug i need...