renewed

back from camp and i cannot believe i even had the thought of not wanting to go. it was honestly a life changing experience and nop, i'm not exaggerating. i reached the place thinking "ok, lets just get this over and done with" and came back home with a heavy heart. i ended up not wanting to leave the place. 

i reached there three and a half hours late and as soon as i reached they had a talk and some group work and i hate group works especially if i don't really know anyone from the group so yea, the first day was ookay, not that great. then came the second day which started off with waking up really early for the bathroom which sucked! and then they started the activities with praise and worship. i like praise and worship because it's always so pumped but i never really want to take full part in it because i'm always so self conscious. so anyway after that, they had more talks and surprisingly i found it interesting and in some ways touching. ohh and i also made new friends :) and then in the evening after our bath, as we were coming down we saw the chairs arranged far apart and the projector displayed "REPENTANCE" and i was like "oh shit. there's confession?" yeah, i was so nervous but in the end, everything went okay. it ended up being the most meaningful and truthful confession i have ever been for. it felt good to just release everything that has been in your head and to just cry it all out realizing that there is someone who understands what you're going through and the awesomest part of it all is no matter what or how big your sins are, he is always willing to push it all aside and forgive you. i always knew i was loved by the people around me but i dare say that they're love is nothing compared to how much god loves me. so yea, after the whole talk on repentance and going for confession, i felt, new. it's hard to describe exactly how i feel but it was just the most amazing feeling ever. i was so hyper the next day. i didn't care how i looked jumping and going all wild, i didn't care how i sounded when i was screaming while singing during the praise and worship, all i cared was about me having a good time and showing god how much i love him back.


there's so much more that i could crap about but i shall stop here. the experience i gained there at the camp was truly amazing. i know i keep saying this again and again but it truly was and like i said, it's hard to explain how i feel about all of this. all i know is i'm really really uber proud to say i'm a christian. oh and that i can't wait for the next camp :D




And without faith it is impossible to please him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is the rewarder of those who diligently seek him. ~Hebrews 11:16