the higher your hopes, the further you have to fall

hope: To wish for something with expectation of its fulfillment.

i seem to be lacking that. but then again, what's the point right? i look at things this way: the higher your hopes, the further you have to fall so to be on the safe side, just don't hope at all. i sometimes have people telling me to keep my hopes up high and to always look at the bright side of things but what they don't realize is when you're talking to someone who is probably one of the most negative minded person you can find, this is exactly how she is gonna be feeling and thinking. negatively. my dad says it's bad but this is my way of being on the safe side which actually makes sense. i mean, look at this way, just say you want something real bad and you get your hopes up really high only to find out that you didn't get what you wanted. you'll probably be devastated but in the same situation, if you didn't get your hopes up high and it didn't work out anyway, you just totally saw it coming right? and if it actually does work out and things happen you'll feel twice as happy. okay, am i making any sense?  i guess what i'm trying to say is i'd rather not hope for anything. and also that i'm a very negative-minded person so just deal with it :) huh, should have just gotten straight to the point :/

watching you's the only drug i need...