and that's why i smile :)

it's been quite a carefree and happy week. i don't really know why but this week has just got me feeling well, happy :) i've been having this positive aura for some unknown reason and it is so not me but i like it. makes me feel calm.

okay so it wasn't thaaat carefree when i had to finish up my moral kerja amal all in one day but pushing that aside, the week has been pretty non stressful. yesterday was officially our last day of school. i can't believe a whole year has gone by and to be completely honest, i am so not ready to become a form 5 and deal with all the stress for spm but back to yesterday, i had tons of fun with my oh so crazy friends. we were just goofing around and talking about things and it was nice to just hang out at the canteen. felt like it had been awhile since we last got together. it's probably not that long ago but i dunno, i just feel that way. what can i say, i can't live without my friends. way cheesy but true :)

watching you's the only drug i need...

i hate everything about you

jealously. 




it's so normal these days. i know it's supposed to be a sin and it's just not good but i'm only human. i hate being jealous. i know i shouldn't and that it's wrong and it just drives me up the wall sometimes when i have no reason whatsoever to be jealous but i just am for god knows what reason. i got to just start accepting things for the way they are and just believe that everything happens for a reason but why is it so hard sometimes? 




is it my fault for wanting to feel special? 

watching you's the only drug i need...

there goes all the food :/

i.look.fcking.ugly. 


got my braces done and the thought that i have to look like this for at least 2 freakin years?! ugh, horrible. i just do not want to talk. ever. okay yes, i'm exaggerating and i'm pretty sure i'll get use to it in awhile but till then i shall just moan in despair.

watching you'd the only drug i need... 

deepavali/birthday

so far exams have just been blehhh. i don't really know how to describe how it has been mostly because i can't and don't want to remember. anyways, on deepavali break now. thank gosh for that, 

deepavali was, okay. went shopping the day before at Kl, Central and bought a punjabi suit. i also saw quite a number of hot guys :D deepavali was fun because of the food. ate till i just could eat no more. all the murruku and mutton did me good. :)

and the day after was... MY BIRTHDAY! at first it was just soooo boring. i mean, it was like any other day. had practice at church for cathecatical night till about 5pm and just came back home and slept. but later at night my oh so darling siblings and friends surprised me. i kinda saw it coming but then again, it was still a surprise and it turned out to be the awesomest birthday ever so yeah, i'm grateful for that. too lazy to upload the pictures or to elaborate what happened so another time i guess. ttfn :)

i can't take one more step towards you, cause all that's waiting is regret.

watching you's the only drug i need...

bye bye A's

I'M SCREWED. 




uh huh, that's all i have and can say. i haven't been progressing at all, nothing's entering my useless brain and, and, I've just been slacking okay?! all my hopes of maybe, just maybe getting a scholarship if i do well for spm is just gone since your form 4 finals also plays a huge part in getting one it seems. :( i dunno, it's seriously too late now so all i can do is just sit for this stupid exams and get it over and done with. oh and to also warn my parents about my marks which will probably be not that great. :/ 

why does this seem to good to be true?

uuhhh so i'm finally done with all the appointments that i have to go through in order to get my braces on and well, it's coming! in two weeks time. all i need to do is go for extraction and then the week after that, i'm gonna be in braces. god, i can already imagine the unwanted attention that i'm gonna get! and also the fact that i'm gonna look so ugly! why didn't i just do this earlier? 

watching you's the only drug i need... 

problematic child :/

i cannot study, don't ask me why, i seriously just cannot. i hate the fact that i get distracted oh so easily and just poof! i end up doing something else. opening my books is not the problem because i actually get pass that. it's the absorbing all the information in that's the problem and it's just frustrating! i have the urge and feeling of wanting to study so what the hell is stopping me? 

I NEED TO FOCUS!!

i seriously think i need to go for a brain scan. :/ 

watching you's the only drug i need...

Arthur's Day 2011

i was supposed to post about Arthur's Day last night but i totally forgot and instead posted about life and my maid -.- sooo yeahh i shall now blog about how awesome the day was :D


Arthur's Day this year was on the 23rd of September. I have been going for 3 years in a row thanks to my dad but to be completely honest, i wasn't that excited to go this year. in fact i didn't mind not going but i didnt want to waste the tickets so i thought might as well right? so yeah, we left around 4.45p.m and the journey there was definitely fun. it was jeremy, rafael, my sister, my sister's friend, and myself all in jeremy's Kelisa. Jeremy and Rafael kept changing the songs that were playing on the radio cuz Rafael wanted to listen to pop but typical Jeremy wanted old school so we ended up listening to Elvis. oh and there was this one part where we were on the highway and Jeremy literally stopped the car at the side like there was something really important that he had to do. i thought he wanted to check his tyres or something but then he asked me to get off and it turned out, he wanted to adjust his speakers at the back which apparently wasn't 'bombastic' enough. at the highway!! -.-' hahaha, Anne joined us at KL and we were literally cramped up in the car like sardines! 


after finally reaching Speed City, KL, we met up with Beqah and Elaine. While we were entering, Jeremy was too busy thinking of ways to sneak in to the VIP cause well, thats where all the booze are, but eventually my friends and I just got fed up so we went with the crowd together with Rafael and got ourselves a good spot. we were standing right in the middle surrounded by hot guys :) it was like, everywhere i turned there was always someone really hot standing there! aahhhhh the view :D lol, we had fun. we screamed like nobody's business, laughed our ass off, and danced like there was no tomorrow! there were quite a number of local bands and artistes performing before Taio Cruz came but i think one of the best was Red Dragon, Mizz Nina and Taio Cruz obviously. 

the concert ended around 12.30 a.m. after sending Anne back, we went to Esso mamak to have our so called  dinner. the journey back was just so funny. Jeremy kept swearing on the road and he missed a the turning to Anne's place twice so we were going in a big round circle twice! then he started honking his car to the beat of Akon's Boomerang which honestly sounded nothing like it but yeah. in the middle of the night! haha, then at the mamak he stared rubbing it in my face that i should have just stuck with him because he ended up sneaking in to the VIP with Anne and that they got free booze, food and also got to snap pictures with JJ and Ean. pffttt, whatever, we had fun partying too. :/  so in the end i reached home at exactly 3.48a.m. but this time my dad was okay with it cause we did after all go for a concert which was all the way at KL and we obviously had to go for dinner after that so yeah. plus i think he kinda trusts Jeremy. i dunno. lol.  

All in all, i had a blast and i am oh so grateful that my dad works at Guinness. Lol, i think i wanna go work there as part time after i finish spm. 






there's so much more that i have to learn, but if you're here with me i know which way to turn. you make it real for me :)

watching you's the only drug i need....