it's a damn small world

went to taman rakyat today after a really long time until i didn't even realize that there are quite a few changes there. i hate going there because i see everyone so active and i just feel so inactive? i duuno it's not a very nice feeling. so anyways, we went walking all the way to the top and the view up there was so beautiful. we could literally see the whole of klang plus the sun was setting so you can imagine how it looked like. i now have a new spot to hang out. no one goes there so it'll just be you there so you get your privacy. but then again it's kinda dangerous for you to be out there alone. :/ haha i don't even think i even remember the way up there, i was too busy panting my way up. minus the mosquitoes, taman rakyat is actually a really nice place. 




thank gosh you talk a lot :D

watching you's the only drug i need...

i'm gonna regret. i just know it

at first i thought it was just me but then i realized you talk to everyone this way... but if it means i get to feel this way well then call me a sucker cause i'm not letting go even though i know i should :/

watching you's the only drug i need...

i hate hot people

yeah, i'm pretty insecure. it's either you deal with it or just shut up and go away. it's not my fault i wasn't born perfect

watching you's the only drug i need...

renewed

back from camp and i cannot believe i even had the thought of not wanting to go. it was honestly a life changing experience and nop, i'm not exaggerating. i reached the place thinking "ok, lets just get this over and done with" and came back home with a heavy heart. i ended up not wanting to leave the place. 

i reached there three and a half hours late and as soon as i reached they had a talk and some group work and i hate group works especially if i don't really know anyone from the group so yea, the first day was ookay, not that great. then came the second day which started off with waking up really early for the bathroom which sucked! and then they started the activities with praise and worship. i like praise and worship because it's always so pumped but i never really want to take full part in it because i'm always so self conscious. so anyway after that, they had more talks and surprisingly i found it interesting and in some ways touching. ohh and i also made new friends :) and then in the evening after our bath, as we were coming down we saw the chairs arranged far apart and the projector displayed "REPENTANCE" and i was like "oh shit. there's confession?" yeah, i was so nervous but in the end, everything went okay. it ended up being the most meaningful and truthful confession i have ever been for. it felt good to just release everything that has been in your head and to just cry it all out realizing that there is someone who understands what you're going through and the awesomest part of it all is no matter what or how big your sins are, he is always willing to push it all aside and forgive you. i always knew i was loved by the people around me but i dare say that they're love is nothing compared to how much god loves me. so yea, after the whole talk on repentance and going for confession, i felt, new. it's hard to describe exactly how i feel but it was just the most amazing feeling ever. i was so hyper the next day. i didn't care how i looked jumping and going all wild, i didn't care how i sounded when i was screaming while singing during the praise and worship, all i cared was about me having a good time and showing god how much i love him back.


there's so much more that i could crap about but i shall stop here. the experience i gained there at the camp was truly amazing. i know i keep saying this again and again but it truly was and like i said, it's hard to explain how i feel about all of this. all i know is i'm really really uber proud to say i'm a christian. oh and that i can't wait for the next camp :D




And without faith it is impossible to please him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is the rewarder of those who diligently seek him. ~Hebrews 11:16

I HATE PACKING

bring yourself together sheena, don't be stupid. you know you don't wanna go back there. right? right!

church camp today. i really don't feel like going because i dunno, i just feel like it's gonna be boring but then again, it's high time i pull myself together and become closer to god. feels like i've been wandering further and further away from him and that is definitely not good. who knows, maybe i'll learn something important there. why can't there be at least one hot guy?  urghhh i hate packing. i keep procrastinating my time because i just don't want to pack! but i guess i should go do it before my mom comes and get really pissed. see ya :)

watching you's the only drug i need...

THAILAND, HERE I COME!

went too the Thai Embassy today and it was definitely a memorable experience. we were brought to this conference room and treated like we were very important people. it was so cool. we just had a short briefing about Thailand, as in their culture, education level and FOOD :D yea i realized that all their food are spicy. there were three thai people who prepared the slide show for us and one of the guy was just plain hilarious! he was just so cute, with his thai accent! oh and he kept saying "OHMAGOSH!" while putting his hand over his mouth. hahaha he definitely kept me entertained. thank gosh i'm an interactor because i mean, come on, who gets to go to a diferrent county for free? it was all thanks to our hard work during charity talentdinner :)

anyways, came back home around 2pm and decided to watch kabhi kushi kabhi gham. don't ask me why, i just suddenly had the urge to watch that movie and thank gosh i did. i always tell myself that i'm not gonna cry because well, i watched the movie like god knows how many times but i end up crying like shit anyway :/ i just, couldn't stop crying! as a matter of fact, i don't remember the movie being that sad. hmm maybe i'm just overly sensitive. -.-' i should keep a note to self the next time i watch that movie : always have tissue and preferably a small pillow next to you so that you can cover your face when crying. lol.

ok i better go bathe. mom's gonna come and shout anytime soon, i can feel it.




shah rukh khan is just so freakin HAWT! who cares if he's 42? :)

watching you's the only drug i need...

thank god i have grown :)

just found my friendster profile and boy was i lame! HAHA. it's been like what? 3 years if i'm not mistaken. i looked so immature and ugly back then :/ and i never realized how boring that site actually is. ok maybe i did or else i'd still be wasting my time there but seriously, i don't see the point of the whole site. 




school holidays just started. LIKE FINALLY! no more horrible exams and lack of sleep. yea i still have tuitions but it's not that bad. maybe i should start going to taman rakyat again since i'm becoming very lazy lately. it's embarrassing to say that my stamina is just, well, disappointing. very disappointing. but that place is just filled with people i know and well, i'd rather be at someplace quiet where no one can see me and give the "you, jogging?" look. yea, i'm very insecure. anyways, i'm finding myself to be more and more lifeless, i find myself doing things that are just so not worth it and well, useless. i really don't know why i bother wasting my time doing these things. like right now, i'm just going through random peoples' facebook profile and when i say random i really mean random. like i don't even know them! i really need a new hobby -.-' 




i give up. i know you shouldn't but sometimes you just got to. i'm sick of trying to be like how you want me to just so that i can please you. i'm sick of trying so hard to not hurt you and i'm just sick of doing so much yet being so unappreciated. so yea, from now on all i'm gonna do is just shut up, ignore the nagging and just not care. ask me something, i'll answer you. want me to do something i'll do it but other then that just don't expect anything anymore. you asked for it. i tried too many times but you just never realized, hopefully someday you will though. sorry :/






why is it that it's so hard for you to notice all the nice things i do to make you happy but so easy to notice the mistakes that i unintentionally do? 

watching you's the only drug i need..